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Capacities of Clouds
With such heights
to fall
the lovers
must all
be suicidal
on some level
As clouds merge into sky truths imbued sorrowful
I will say
beauty depends on pain
as night
depends on day
The only fear one should have
is happiness…
The insurmountable physics
After so many footsteps
into depth
And thoughts…
into death
Such a depth or height
to explore
because happiness
is no more
than the illusion
of totality
and this illusion
is confronted by reality
eventually
even though some aspects of reality
are a malleability
but with that
you give up your control
over your love of things not so light but bright
with the depth of the unknowable hole in your soul
that makes you two halves of a whole
(I do not know if this is dark or morbid but I am reflecting… We will say I am reflecting on the song “I’m only happy when it rains”. But there is some truth to the song. To go further, it may not be so much that there is no happiness, or that happiness is a hindrance; it may be that this thing may be poorly defined and misconfigured in modern times. We are told that sadness is a sin, just as we are told that the shamans are schizophrenic. In my experience, sadness is an oracle and a teacher. I have always functioned best as a wanderer and a shadow. In order to reach the quantum, there must be the presence of duality. But who the hell can even understand this or begin to embrace such perilous things, let alone understand their values.
Methodically, everything has become forbidden in a gradual constricting movement, or… Will to suppression. I believe this most effects those with proclivities of the creative, as they are the ones who surf these waves and create beautiful things, and without these beautiful things the world devolves and loses value.
They will call you bi-polar, depressive, anxiety ridden, and things like this, catch phrases pulled from the psychopathic DSM book, which states categorically that everyone is insane.
As for me… Damn… When I see the sun diffusing the clouds I seem to say.
“Leave my fucking clouds alone. I love the rain.”
Very fucking confounding, probably.
And probably should be embarrassing, maybe.)
Published 13th Jun 2021
Author's Note
I was thinking of the concept of a muse. I always felt like perhaps I have had muses, but along with this I perceived a force in my creative sphere that I always thought of an "intellectual daemon". I believe there are certain elements of existence which this daemon prefers. I am most reminded of this in the contemplation of or the confrontation with certain ideations.
I love the fucking spleen... WTF.
I love the fucking spleen... WTF.
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13th Jun 2021 2:11pm
Muses are good until you start to love them and then it gets complicated......
Like all relationships
Etc
Do the math
Full stop
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Like all relationships
Etc
Do the math
Full stop
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13th Jun 2021 4:16pm
This is very profound, PS. I greatly thank you.
The Math of Complicated...
That is a cool title for a write...
The Math of Complicated...
That is a cool title for a write...
14th Jun 2021 5:11am
Dear CO,
“ The only fear one should have
is happiness… ” is this because it’s fleeting? As a lover of clouds and rain I dig this write. As for muses they’re a calculated fickle risk.
(My muse of sadness totally agrees with that assessment😉).
Thoughtful write. H🌷
“ The only fear one should have
is happiness… ” is this because it’s fleeting? As a lover of clouds and rain I dig this write. As for muses they’re a calculated fickle risk.
(My muse of sadness totally agrees with that assessment😉).
Thoughtful write. H🌷
14th Jun 2021 5:39am
Perhaps anything temporary cannot be reality.
Muse of sadness. That is a beautiful way of saying it.
Thank you H.
Muse of sadness. That is a beautiful way of saying it.
Thank you H.
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14th Jun 2021 8:32am
I find it interesting, R, that you feel the many people do fear happiness. I wondered if most people are the happy people.?. but... of course that is an illusion, as most people are the shallow appearance of happiness, hyper imposed upon social media platforms in pictures and anti depressant commercials. I know there is a lot more to "them" than this and one cannot generalize in such ways.
This is such a complex topic and I am so glad to see all of your perspectives.
I think I am also a true goth :)). Strengthened by the melancholic ways. Foreva Eva.
"Goth life" may be akin to the idea of the bad guy in the story.
The bad guy as the most interesting character.
That is a great song by Azam Ali.
This is such a complex topic and I am so glad to see all of your perspectives.
I think I am also a true goth :)). Strengthened by the melancholic ways. Foreva Eva.
"Goth life" may be akin to the idea of the bad guy in the story.
The bad guy as the most interesting character.
That is a great song by Azam Ali.
