Darkness

Have you ever felt lost in the dark?
Like your whole world had been ripped apart?
 
You wonder around hopelessly looking for the light.
But it's nowhere within your eyes sight.
 
You stumble, you bumble, you kick, you fight.
You scream, you cuss, you scratch, you bite.
 
But there's nothing but empty all around.
No peace, no comfort, no joy to be found.
 
You reach deep into the nothing.
So desperately hoping to find something.
 
But all you find is everything's gone
There's nothing left to grab upon.
 
Your world is spinning out of control.
So lost in the dark you can't find your own soul.
 
Is anyone out there?
Does anyone care?
Is this really my life, so full of despair?
 
Finding Darkness is everywhere I look.
Consuming all lightness from every nook
 
Everyday wandering in darkness unended.
Hoping no one knows I've only pretended.
 
Faking a soul from which is lost.
The years of abuse have taken it as cost.
 
My Days are hollow and barely real.
No sign of happiness in which to feel.
 
At night my mind riddles with thoughts I can't suspend.
Trying to brush them aside and continue to pretend.
 
Oh how I hate these night's of sleep
Trying to Hide in the darkness so deep.
 
I wish there was a way to stay safe and  
sound.
A way to sleep without being found.
 
But At night is when he always comes.
The memories of his wrath in which I've succumb.
 
Thinking so clearly of all of my deaths.
Wondering if one of them is truly what's next.
 
Because No matter how wonderful my day,
All of the hope at night, ripped away.
 
By the knowledge that, of you, I'll never be free.
Because the fear keeps you forever a part of me.