Temporary joy

All this horrible pain but got a smile instead  
 
Weight on my shoulder again but wild dancing then  
 
They get worried my friend but my pain started to retired in the end  
 
Daydreaming in a hurry to find the one that had a vision for me talk about it
 
This heavy gatekeeping is getting blurry for me to get in. What a crazy envision.  
 
i started to highly doubt it  
 
But joy is calling my name in this journey and can’t stop this unique mission  
 
I’m sorry that just a temporary joy isn’t it?