So lost

I see the truth
you loved me for who i am
like the stars hold the moon
right their where they belong
thats when i look at you
This is all like a dream to me
every color i c every word i speak
its like i barly exsist anymore and
i cant take being left alone
i want to be free
i want to be happy
but it seems the only happieness
ill ever get is when i die
when i put this beating heart to rest
everybody knew i couldnt last
they knew i was a fuk up
they knew i was a person of washed dreams
but now that im in this deep their realizing
the real person im suposed to be
i have been fighting
fighting for him
fighting for hur
and fight for myself
but everybodys different
everybodys had a different life style
but the list of sins i have done
as draged me down more then ever now
watching my life play over and over
again, watching the people i love walk out of my life again
like always this storie never ends
i have seen,felt and died 2wice scence ive been alive
the scares remind me im real
the scares remind me of what happend
telling a storie from the past
but the biggest scare ive ever gotten is right in here
where my cold heart lays every night beating slower and
slower everyday,they tell me things i dont want to hear
they tell me im dying while i close my eyes and everything eles
just dissapears,i never wanted to hear wut hurted the most but
all is forgive when all is understud....