swollen lip

when my mental health is down
makes me want to drown
no motivation just feel empty
this is not something trendy

i know i have to get things done
i just dont want to today
from my monster inside there is nowhere to run
i tell them i dont want to play

days and day goes by
i put things off and isolate myself
i say im fine but i lie
i tell myself save yourself

i knew i need to throw away my makeup for months
but i kept saying ill do it tomorrow
i knew better
as i stare at my own shadow

i was feeling pretty confident on this day
i put on my favorite purple lipstick
nothing could get in my way
soon came an issue that i needed to fix

part of my lip grew swollen
it just wouldn't clear up
like a punishment for something that i had stolen
i had enough

i can't be to hard on myself
i just need to try more
only you can save thyself
now my lip is sore