Manipulated II

I was there at the crack of dawn
Waiting to do anything for you
I'd given up everything if you said to
I was ready to be at your call and beckoning

I gave up my purity for you
I gave up my virginity for you
I gave up my last standing sense of innocence towards my parents for you
I gave up my will to live for you

That one word that made my head spin
Made my heart throb and melt
The way you could say that one word and I'd be there doing anything
Getting on my hands and knees for you

I went from watching you graduate to watching you finish
I went from loving you like a brother to lusting you like a lover
I went from a seventh grade school girl to a full grown adult next to your eighteen years of experience
I went from saying your name happily to moaning it out reluctantly

You give me all my writing inspiration
I could write about how you never got over a girl you dated senior year
I could write about how you turned to me because I was easy and eager to be yours
I could write about how you screwed me and then screwed me over

I could write so many things about you
For now I'll just stick to writing about how I felt
How it felt to get my virginity taken away and then never seeing you again
How it felt to get chewed up and spit out

Oh and how it burns and aches to feel so empty and useless now that I don't have you
The nights I spend thinking of my experiences with you
How you changed me from a girl to a woman in a day
How I blocked you the first time you asked me for pictures

How I caved the second time you asked me for pictures
How I leaned into your touch allowing myself to become manipulated
The way I craved you to be with me
The way I knew this would all end up sour and I'd be the one getting hurt