Insanity

I didn't want to be here again. I didn't want to feel confused, alone, and cold. There is so much going on around me and only gets worse in my head. In my head that's when all the different sounds and sensations happen that I have no control of. I can control what's going on around me physically but I have no control of what's going on in my head.
I can't tell them to keep it down or stop saying those harmful things about yourself. That you better than that when I say it though they only laugh at me. Which hurts  my feelings which makes me turn away and hide wishing that I wasn't alive.
I long for peace for the world I live and want peace more so in my mind. Having both though would be a dream come true. Which anymore my dreams are dark and sinister which worries me when looking at the company during the day time hours. But that's a thought for a whole different day.