DEEPER IMMERSIONS INTO NOW  (11-22-1992, Flagship Hotel Pier, Galveston Island, Texas)

 
how many winters  
can i even recall      
where i have been      
seen and felt      
here and there      
then and now      
where i have been      
so intimately absorbed      
both by and up into      
such crisp  clean      
days as this      
where ive listened      
to the wind      
and felt the textures      
of rocks      
of sand      
and moving waves      
upon dancing sea surfaces      
in sparkling star fields      
of living  liquid light      
with my eyes      
all my senses      
and the wholeness      
of my tuned in being      
just as here now      
with this vast      
open gulf        
before me today      
presently so flat      
calm and still      
for my sight and soul      
to sail out upon      
in humbled  silent prayers      
of ever deepening      
communion      
where this open skys      
clear  blue domes      
crystalline lullaby      
of free erasure      
forever calls me      
it quickly fills      
and quickens me      
as the restorative bliss      
of its harmonious peace      
swallows my mind      
my all      
ahhhhhhhhhhh      
finally a rest      
away from the chaos      
of everything else      
in life these days      
which so relentlessly seems      
to so toxically consume      
takes and demands      
so much more      
of what littles left of me now      
yes its been way too long      
since such sweet      
inner happiness      
has so systemically      
infected me      
in this way      
back here      
feeling so electrically alive      
so vitally reborn again      
in the exhilarating wonderment      
of my natural element      
my true natures essence      
refound and restored      
in this sacred niche      
of my spiritual hearts      
and spirits      
one true home      
wherein all my lifes      
presently pent up stresses      
so quickly      
so effortlessly      
dissolve away      
beneath this open kiss      
of sunlight  sky      
wind  land and seas      
sweet  healing embrace      
everywhere here around me      
seamlessly absorbing me      
into their boundless      
greater      
inseparable all      
with only thoughts of life      
of love and peace      
addressing and refilling      
me now      
as i let go      
and surrender fully      
to its all encompassing      
transcendent      
embraces      
penetrative gifts      
through which inwardly      
i am more deeply      
renewed      
beyond the mere      
darker shadows      
and self destructive shallows      
of this hopelessly lost      
blind  ignorant      
illusory world      
so void of compassion      
heart  soul      
empathy  kindness      
and mercy      
where true inner vision      
seems nearly extinct      
beyond even these      
few  frail      
scattered handfuls        
of freshly arisen thoughts      
reflections and words      
ive loosed out here  
in all this freshly spilled ink  
in these painterly      
scratch marked impressions      
upon this no longer      
blank  white  tongueless  mute page      
to leave behind      
for who knows whom      
in this increasingly sickened      
but still so beautiful      
world      
here in this      
ever widening wake      
of my temporal life      
journeys      
passing lights slippage      
so fleetingly away      
from here      
back into      
the more radiantly illumined      
awakened fullness      
of eternal soul knowing      
and being  beyond      
back into the      
deeper      
great mystery      
forever awaiting us all      
just behind      
mankinds truly insane      
ego blinded      
illusory worlds      
opaque      
dream thin veil      
beyond      
everything else here      
as well      
yet which will      
still never be      
quite enough now      
to ever save us      
in time      
from the most dangerous    
existential threat    
of all      
ourselves