Back to love

You are my weakness even after all you’ve done to me its sad really when you think about it that all you had to do was ask and I easily take you back now were back to the bullshit back to the lying and the cheating sometimes I hate you I hate the way you are and the shit you do why must you beat me what did I do that was so wrong my home girls told me to just chuck that shit up because of the nice gifts but I find myself wondering if its worth it worth the extra thirty minutes to put on makeup to cover up the bruises if it was worth having to were the shades and the long sleeves shirts all times of the year is it worth the fear of being in my own home you are always so sweet afterwards you cater to my every need even if only for a day or two but then we’re back to the abuse I mean I guess in a way its my fault if I just do things like you ask me to the first time we wouldn’t go through this I got to learn to stop making you mad and then everything would be back good like it was when we first got together. How do I get us back to the place we use to be. When everything was fun and you didn’t tear me down mentally physically and emotionally. How do we get back to that place called love.

-Loyalty