Abused #2

Everyday I pray you stop loving me because you loving me hurts to much, the pain hurts so much to the black eye to the broken ribs, when I try to run the love you give me gets worse and worse now I'm scared, always watching what I say and do to what I wear, today i had to tell another lie about my bruises and say fell, I honestly don't know how much more I can lie, Its getting harder and harder to breathe at times all I can feel is this heavy foot pushing hard against my chest. I secretly took birth control so no kids will go through to pain I feel , but all I want is to be a mom. My dreams are crushed along with my ribs , why why cant you lift your foot off me I beg and beg but nothing works, please i can see my life ending day by day. I hope that there is a reason why I'm here.