Guilt

A guilty heart weighs heavy on me, while being troubled by the pressures of my life.
 
The guilt of not measuring up, the guilt of not being that rock my life needs, the guilt of not being that person I want to be.
 
Yeah, I know guilt comes with living, but I just wanna know when does it stop?  
 
When does that shining light, finally rains down on me to rid me of this pressure? So, I can finally feel free of this trap I manifested in my mind.  
 
When does the pain from not measuring up to expectations placed on me, to be the reliable go to, finally fade away into the back of their mind? So I can finally take a deep breathe and exhale the stress away.  
 
When does this guilt disappear or will it forever be a part of me? I just wanna know, that if I stop trying to please them, I can start focusing on me. Taking my life to new heights, where it supposed to be.