Embracing The Feeling

I need to embrace the feeling
Where I could fly higher than the ceiling
Because I'm better than I was before
And I'm not miserable anymore
I took a break before I crumbled
Sought known love when I fell towards trouble
Going to a place where I was seen and loved for being me
Was undoubtedly exactly where I needed to be
And meeting new people who liked me more than I expected
Was the additional piece I needed to get out of my head
It helped me regroup and refocus
And gain the clarity I needed to notice
That sometimes people just want to see what they will
No matter how much you display that is real
Since then my mind had a new direction
A more unified me myself and I connection
Running after others was only getting in the way
So I accepted what is, whether they go, or they stay
Passion as my ground, I knew I was worth rebuilding
Walked through someone's grass, but mostly for the fielding
So I could take notes on how to construct my path
I didn't think I'd find real assistance in that
Unexpected turns threw me off a little bit
Some left me grateful, others took a hit
And I still get apprehensive in weak moments but I know
That I'm strong enough to get to where I want to go
So now I need to tell myself that I'm awesome
For the goals that I've accomplished
Like getting my health on the right track
Because I believed in possibility of that
I said that I would remain committed
I worked hard and I fucking did it
I'm sure some people were quite surprised
That I'd take the time to change my life
But I was not going to be defeated
When it was in my hands to treat it
Though the battle is won the fight never ends
I can't let myself return to that state again
I'm also thankful for the support I've received
From the people that have been around me
It's true what they say, when you're world mentally smashes
Your body malfunctions and inevitably crashes
I picked myself up and I'm becoming brand new
Love it or hate it, I'm enjoying the view
I've shown myself a glimpse of just what I can do
I rediscovered strength inside me that only I ever knew
That others never really quite believed to be true
And I'll be more that I can be proud of as I continue to improve