a girl named ashley

so this is a story of a little girl

who came to this cruel world

full of joy and wonder

but now she hides under her covers



she has trauma something that shouldn't have happened

she wanted to be loved by her family maybe he thought this was funny maybe he was laughing

she doesn't remember a lot of memories or when it started

just little memories here and there



she was a lonely girl

was she groomed she don't know maybe?

has was pretty with long curls

that's when she was approached or attacked



she remembers the pulling of her arm

remember not wanting to go with him

he has done a sin

she remembers the harsh kisses



she remembers laying down and doing what she was told

she remembered that there was no escape

it would happen or and over again

she never screamed or yelled



she just let it happen

thinking it will all be over soon

so she could pretend it never happened

not knowing latter in life the trauma would follow her



different faces but same situations

not understanding what was going on with her body

why did she have these sexual urges?

urges that seem to overpower her



she didn't understand how ashamed she felt

pleasuring herself because even as an adult

she felt it was wrong and dirty

how she doesn't trust men mostly older men



thinking someone will hurt her

thinking that the only thing that is of value is her body

this is what the world showed her

that she was never safe