Survival

you used me as a pod and exposed me to evil ways, things i never craved you gave me a taste and their you left me in a lonely land far from people and even farther from myself you left me wanting to kill myself in the dreaded shame and self hate i didn't choose this fate .  i did things that didn't help me to self medicate and fill my hearts longing for a safe place to stay. So i went on my way looking for a mate that could help me find love in this empty space and teach me a better way.