Escape

For three years you
Held me under your thumb
For three years I have never been so numb.
And because of you, I lost who I was.
I became just a shell, empty on the inside.
You cut off my ties, while feeding me new lies, with each severed thread. What's worse is that I believed you, and let you fill me with dread.
Everything was going your way, how
Happy you must've felt.
If I dared defy you, that smile vanished, and we fought.
Fought until I cried, and your smile returned, knowing you won.
Some days, you wanted to fight just to remind me that you were the one in charge.
You played your pawns just right to break me more and more with each play..  
How stupid was I, to sit and let you do this?  
Red flags were everywhere, from beginning to end.
But red flags just look like flags, when youre forced to wear rose colored glasses.
It took everything to break free.
The more you screamed, and held on to me with your bruising grip, the more I realized, my fight was stonger.
Its taking more than I thought to rebuild what you had torn down.
It's been 3 years since I've escaped from under your thumb.
I'm still healing the damage done.