trouble focusing

this medication I'm taking has some pro and cons
I like that I can get some sleep finally at night
the con is i space out more than normal is that wrong
the pro is i feel calmer

i was trying to make a point in an argument then i went blank
i just couldn't remember what i was saying
its good that i can't fight or get real angry
at night when i take the medicines i see images

i see the dark shadow monsters
i see like spiders webs there black in front of me
at the same time when i go through them they disappear
then i fall fast asleep

I'm trusting the process
i know its about a month for the medicines to really work well
i can handle the little discomfort i feel
for a small moment, I'm in hell

I'm struggling and still fighting
healing is a very long process
no one tells how long or hard it is
this is something we should talk about