long gone long ago

*sigh*
today,
was it today or yesterday still?
If I had a choice to turn back time would I?
This life was not what i needed it to be,
what i wanted it to be,
but without those trials what would i be?
Who would I be?
Could there ever be another me,
someone who made the right choices and not pick up the next drag?
someone who didn't look forward to the next tok?
A person who loved to be around her friends again?
Someone who didnt want to deal with the drama of alcohol?
Was there another path I could have taken?
Some fork in the road the was covered in fog that I had missed?
Was this the fork in the road I had missed?
Was all of this because I wasnt paying attention to my choices?
To what I was doing for a moment?
Is there ever going to be a break in the clouds so i can see where my path to goodness is again?
*Sigh*
There is no reason but me to be here where I am
no one to blame but me and my friends
if they wernt there would i be here?
Could I have changed myself to be the monster I am today?
Is there any reality in my world of fantasy?













If there was a way to change back time to any moment in life would you do it?