This Despair

When, when I saw you
My lips began to ramble
Shiver
Wanting to scream your name

I, I couldn't have you
My skin began to linger
Waiting
For your warm, caressing touch

Why? Why did I see you?
My eyes filled with tears
Filled
With despair and grief

You were everything
I ever wanted
All I needed

But when I lost you...
When you weren't there
To wipe away my tears

Before I could even touch you

I could feel it...
Softly coming
I could hear it...
A warm, blood filled
crystal heart
Cracked right through

This DESPAIR!
This DESPAIR!

I could not bare it!

My hands were shivering
But finally I was able..
To lift and point the bullet

I felt the pain
The despair
Slowly fading away

Relief, greater than heaven.