on my own terms

so I have received this message
great time to have this motivation
was stuck on writer's block
stuck in this dull motion

I have this friend who basically wanted to have sex with me
the hint was well we can still be friends
not going to lie sometimes I do have sexual encounters
kinda like it in a way nobody knows nobody sees

regardless of who I decided to have sex with
don't always choose wisely
I want it to be on my terms
I say no nicely

for most of my life, I have acted because of pressure
feeling like I had no choice I had to give in
I want to be in control
I don't want a lecture

I do understand why guys want to have sex with me
I'm not trying to be conceited
I get it they like my body
they want their fantasies to be a realty

I do have a curious mind and I'm also open to new things
not sure what type of relationship is good for me
they are so many options
but at the same time, it will be my choice