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fustrated

so I have been thinking maybe I been looking at the wrong type of relationship
as you know I am pretty openminded well I try to be
maybe I have been looking at this the wrong way don't you see
it just a thought hear me out

there's always been something missing
most of my relationships are monogamous
recently I've discovered maybe that would not work for me
I seem to have some urges that I want more sexually

I also see myself as a masochist
I think theses urges I been fighting for my whole life
could be due to trauma
I also think maybe I'm just a different kind of person

so, for example, I feel if I was intimate with someone
if they got off and I didn't it would be difficult for me
I know they say sex isn't everything
but that scenario would not satisfy me

I would need something to kill that urge
which has been the case often
I need some sort of compromise
a lot of people I know don't want to meet me halfway

so, therefore, it gets frustrating
wish there was more honesty
where I decision could be made equally
I guess this world doesn't work like that


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