Run on love stories

Okay,
how many times
have i said
"I'm sorry"?
because i
swear it
feels
like
a million.

I never ment
to hurt you.
in fact, it
hurt me
because
i knew
what i
was doing
to you.

I am
still sorry.
for...
everything?
i don't know
where to
start
or where to
end.

yes, we are
still friends.
probably until
the end of
one of our
existances.
but, there
will always be
a side of
regret.
a side of
jealousy.
and a side
of mystery.

mystery of
what could
have been
but will
never
be.

what we could
have had.
lost in an
empty sea.
of hopes
dreams
or nightmares?
was your love
a nightmare?

up and down.
Never truly
the same
as the
day
before.

never truly
a relationship
never truly
normal
never truly
feeling
love.
Our "relationship"
missing the most
important
factor.
Love.

so trial
and
error.
just one more
time.
can my heart
take the pain?
or will it
finally crumble
as it has been
threatening
to do?

trial and error
never seems
to work
because i
always seem
to find
an
error.

never do
mean.
and no
im not a
perfectionist.
perfection hardly
exists.
not in
my world
at least.

One more
time
of heart-ache
and pain
all i can
take
before i go
crashing down.

one
two
three.
i loved them all
but time has
changed.
one to chose
but just who?
i think i
know
its easy to
see
that you,
number two
are the one
for me.