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Night Terrors
A night terror a night keeps sleep out of sight.
I hardly sleep and when I do I often dream of murdering you
not out of wanting or even need.
These thoughts and dreams will just never leave.
Every night I take a pill,
in the hope of sleeping sound and still.
But to the horror of my mind, what's in my brain is the slaughter.
stabbing, ripping, thrashing about
ill scream in alarm of that there's no doubt
smash my head into the wall or make a great fall.
At this point, I just don't sleep at all.
I hardly sleep and when I do I often dream of murdering you
not out of wanting or even need.
These thoughts and dreams will just never leave.
Every night I take a pill,
in the hope of sleeping sound and still.
But to the horror of my mind, what's in my brain is the slaughter.
stabbing, ripping, thrashing about
ill scream in alarm of that there's no doubt
smash my head into the wall or make a great fall.
At this point, I just don't sleep at all.
Published 25th Aug 2020
Author's Note
I have night terrors almost every night coupled with intrusive thoughts when I'm awake. It gets quite tiring never being able to just shut down.
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Anonymous
31st Aug 2020 9:03pm
Oh lawd, I hear this one. I was also diagnosed with OCD ten years ago. Just did an interview on the podcast about it actually if you ever wanted to check it out.
I think it’s hard sometimes for people to comprehend how distressing intrusive thoughts can be, and just how much they can drag you down, even without realising it.
What matters most though is that we keep fighting. Keep living, keep getting up, keep doing life... as Bukowski once said “it’s the only good fight there is”.
I do wish you well in this life. Thank you for sharing.
-M
I think it’s hard sometimes for people to comprehend how distressing intrusive thoughts can be, and just how much they can drag you down, even without realising it.
What matters most though is that we keep fighting. Keep living, keep getting up, keep doing life... as Bukowski once said “it’s the only good fight there is”.
I do wish you well in this life. Thank you for sharing.
-M
31st Aug 2020 11:30pm
I actually did listen to that ep of the podcast yesterday! I really enjoyed listening.
I wish the same to you. Thank you for reading!
I wish the same to you. Thank you for reading!
I just hope this episode will lessen the more you age. You're certainly not the first person to suffer like this. It's possibly becoming a common problem, either that or just that no one really used to talk about it through fear of not being understood.
1st Sep 2020 00:40am
There is definitely more awareness of issues like this now more than ever which is nice. I think it helps to know there are other people out there going through the same or similar situations as me.
Thank you for commenting!!
Thank you for commenting!!
