WHAT IF I TOLD YOU

As a child growing up yet still walking around with wondering eyes blinded, by my mere innocences of an child's mind as in mind and heart and soul. As I do not have the grown up maturity to understand fully, the real realization of how the world works and doesn't work in an grown up world. What if I was to tell you as my parents that I was abuse physically and mentally, at the very hands of another who your trusted as family even though to me they were only a stranger in passing cause I trusted your judgement. What if I told you this experience has change ME from inside the core of my life affecting my heart and soul, because of the fragments tormenting me in ways I could never dream or imagine in the abyss of my deepness within me. What if I told you as I become quite and withdrawal, from the very images that seems to haunt me in my night dreams. As they still exist in my mind as I silently dig deep and hard to understand wholeheartedly, why me for what did I do to deserve this kind of treatment, is it because that your try to create a world to protect me from the outside world. For what if I told you as my parents that I was abuse, physically and mentally and emotionally due to the misconception of trusting someone, I didn't even know as I hide my scars and secrets behind a mask as an disguise hiding my shame as I feel it was my fault to take the blame. As a child growing up yet still walking around in wonderland of the world, thinking everyone you meet is here to protect me from the depth of the darkness. That surrounds those who are evil like devils in human skin, who's only purpose is to destroy and damage a young heart and soul as they abuse you mentally and physically and emotionally, draining you of your innocences of being just an child yet with so much to still learn, who must remain in silence of a cold and darken world unseen and unheard.