Long, Long Time

I've been a devil
Devil's on my case, he's in my face, he's in my mind
His only aim is to victimize
I've been a ghost
Ghosting through life, trying not to leave a mark
Tryna stay invisible, not even seen from far
I've seen the world
World of pain, world of shame, world of hurt, world of games
World of sunshine through the rain
Some more than most
Most are blinded, tryna look for answers, they can't find em
They can't see beyond their eyelids

I've been a liar
A liar to friends and fam alike, I cannot right
All the wrong I've caused; the past has passed us by
I've been a thief
A thief who loves to prey upon the weak and broken
The con artist floats in to toy with emotions
I took for granted
Granted trust, I was granted freedom - abused it
Forgot that once you have it, you could lose it
Her love for me
Me and her, of course the problem was me
But the answer was not to drop her and flee
 
I've been above
Above the law, outside the limits, overstepping boundaries
The evil within came out of me
I've been underneath
Underneath what's been expected, I've been substandard
I crawl forward just to jump backwards
I've been around
Around for about a quarter century
About a quarter of that was spent resenting me
Some darkness you see
See into my soul, take off the rose-tinted glasses
The fact is: you can't deny that there's a lot lacking

I've been in jail
Jailed by Mr M in the mirror, the inner me's the judge and the jury
Reflection of the impure me
Inside my mind
My mind's the land where sinners dwell, where winners fail
Perfect spot to set up a little prison cell
It's time to leave
Leave this mental dungeon, leave my past in the past
Make this the last time I'll have a relapse
I've done my time
Time to release myself; these prison bonds, unlock ‘em
Let my mistakes be forgiven, just not forgotten