Tonight

Tonight I can write,
the saddest lines,
of how it used to be.
The night I left shattered my heart forever.
I loved him so and,
sometimes he loved me too.
it was a love like no other,
so caring, so loving, so passionate,
so strong, but it faded away,
then came the truth,
the lies, the drugs. the drinking, and the abuse
no matter how hard it was. I loved him.
No matter how hard I try to hate him.
I can’t, I love him, but our forever is over
and nothing will change that.
so I sit in the dark, writing these sad lines,
of what it used to be,
Just trying to write good bye.