My suicide prayer

Now I lay my head to rest
Each long day has come to test
O dear lord I wish it best
If I take two in the chest.
For life I won’t live no longer
My fear of death is getting stronger.
Years and years I lie and wait
For you to make one huge mistake.
As I sit her my dying wish
I hope you can answer this.
For years I wait and wish no longer
To be on this earth and sit and ponder
Life’s long meaning and loves deep kiss
For my life wants none of this.
For years I try and stay
But nothing can make me say
I want to live longer and
Do nothing but ponder
But my deep dark secret
Will never be answered but this
My new found hope and new found passion
Leaves me not to all has happened
So damn wrong and so damn fast
O please lord make this pass.
For life I want to live no longer
My prayer makes only me stronger.
My dieing wish will only grow
And maybe take me off death row
But I pray to you for this
Please answer my dieing wish
For another time I yet and say it
I don’t not want to be no longer
Lord o lord please take me under
To the gates of heaven or the pits of hell
Its all new to me be all well
For this planet is another hell
Take me off it so I don’t feel no pain
Please o please answer my prayer
My only prayer to you is this
Answer my one and only dieing wish.
My suicide prayer i pray to you
... My lord My creator and My Unholy demise.