Sitting here thinking.

I'm still searching for meaning  
In this dream skape  
Reality is a dream state we only seem wake,  
When I sleep I'm a 5th diminsional criminal,  
Does that mean I think I'm evil subliminally.  
I don't know I just grow  
I just go  
Where my gut push my feet  
Where the leafs tend to blow  
My inner most thoughts  
Rhyme sometimes I give them a post  
Never asked for income or a rose  
But fuck I been in a hole  
Sometimes I feel like I'm dead  
Sometimes I feel like my soul  
Is bursting out of my skin  
I've seen mid highs and great lows  
Sometimes I think I'm too old  
Sometimes I think I'm the most  
Powerful force in existence  
I balance them cause I'm both  
So are you
We are close  
Even closer than you think
Your eyes are touching a screen  
That is a forwarding link  
Into the way that I think  
Into the depts that I sink  
If you get hurt I didn't mean it  
I really do this for me  
For releive  
This release  
Is my peace  
When it seems  
I'm empty  
I just read  
To feel free  
If this help you then cool  
My suffering not for nothing  
Hopefully if I get cut I grow a forest  
From blood were in a placed to be crushed.  
In a state where your states infiltrated  
It's hard to escape it  
I'm watching kings knights pawns and bishops  
Switch places  
Until it's time to fly away in my  
Alkaline space ship.  
Or maybe the earth reverse it's rotation  
And we go back to correct our mistakes  
If I'm reincarnated bring me back as my self as a baby  
But most likely I'll go into a whole nother phase of creation to weed out the parts of it's make up,
To be a thought of the maker
What if we all or just parts
Of a brain stem  
I'm just sitting here thinking.