drink, cut, happy

drinking my life away... The sweet feeling of numbness... Stops my pain. Stops my thoughts... And all I can do is put a smile on my face... This is the only time I feel good... I feel happy.... And sadly I know this is not me... This is not who I am... But in the end who gives a shit... If it makes me happy so be it... Just hope there's more alcohol... This feeling... Is not me....but I don't what to be the real me... I whant to be who I am when I drink.... This feeling that nothing can hurt me not even the words of the people who hate... Or the blade that cuts into my wrist....  But at lest for the moment I can say im happy... As you can guess at the moment im drunk... And it feels so good... So complete... For this short time happiness over comes me... But at the same time I smile a empty smile... Witch in the end don't mean shit...  I'm happy... But still cut... Haha what fun... I wish this can last forever :)


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