Just a rough draft

Lately I’ve been talking to myself
Came to the fact I had to talk to someone, there was no one else
This grief of my losses makes my heart beat a little faster
While the ones I truly loved moved onto greater pastures
Remember all the times we stayed up till we passed out in sufficient laughters
Now I cry until the days are done and life is only harder
I once received a message saying that you can live your life until you succeed or long enough to become a martyr
Exaggerate the pain in your eyes
‘Till you get it right, until then you suffer
I just wish I was involved with someone that would deliver
Not leave at the site of the pain, not at the site of fight or a differ
So take me to a place where I can find total peace
Not a place where I crease at the thought of inner release


Remember the time I was on top of the clouds
And you waited for me to fall down
And now I feel like I’m thrown out
Because lately I have been thrown out
Kicked to the curb
All I’ve had are these thoughts and these lyrics to observe
Always thought I was meant for better things but now I’m concerned
That I’m just a fake, screwed up lost cause that waits for his schedule to be adjourned
So delay these plans until they’re at a time that suits my vision
Delay them until I’m ready to blow up these thoughts
I don’t know when I’m ready, maybe never, but I force you to listen
Please stay till I’m done, I can be crosses and you can be noughts
I’ve not got a lot of days to lose
But I’m dizzy in this dazey mood
Likely screw up ‘till these days are through
Gonna relax ‘till no more pain is due