OCD - Through constant repetition

“I'm a living disorder
Ill wear you out, debilitating
Ill bring chaos, disorder
I go by a name
O.C.D”

I try to keep it together
But I live with a curse
That makes me act crazy
I guess it could be worse
I try to keep it together
When my world is out of place
Thinking up the many scenarios
Like will they live another day
I try to keep it together
But Im tired of being certain
Tired of seeing on and off
Tired of buttons and switches
I try to keep it together
When things do go as planned
As i seem to sabotage myself
Delusions you won't understand
I try to keep it together
When im finally fast asleep
I finally get that quiet moment
Till i wake up full of anxiety
I try to keep it together
Play a song one, two, three
The times i peak at my alarm set
Is always more than thirty
I try to keep it together
I struggling to live life each day
Im a human sanitizer
Head is messy, homes on display
I try to keep it together
But one thought turns too many
I over-analyze too much
As it spirals into eighty
I try to keep it together
So many times, I really try
At times i want to give up
But i know i cant say one good bye
I try to keep it together
Even if you run the other way
Because you will never meet another
Man to say I love you that many times a day