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Like I was hit by a semi truck
Lately I found out the perfect friendship I had with my best friend wasn’t actually perfect. Turns out she thought I was fucking a lot of things up.
(*song*)
So, it turns out
Maybe what I saw
Was what I wanted to see
Then I guess it’s my fault
But seeing all those bad things I did
I guess it makes me think
How can you change this reality
In a blink
Of the eye
And I can’t help help but ask... why
Why did I ever treat you like that?
Why didn’t you let me know?
And HOW....
How did this go on for so long?
How do I get so intense when I’m mad that you avoid upsetting me?
How do I get so mad?
And WHAT...
What is wrong with me?
What makes me so insecure?
What possesses me to need you to respond immediately?
I feel so much for you
I never wanted it to hurt you.
(*song*)
So, it turns out
Maybe what I saw
Was what I wanted to see
Then I guess it’s my fault
But seeing all those bad things I did
I guess it makes me think
How can you change this reality
In a blink
Of the eye
And I can’t help help but ask... why
Why did I ever treat you like that?
Why didn’t you let me know?
And HOW....
How did this go on for so long?
How do I get so intense when I’m mad that you avoid upsetting me?
How do I get so mad?
And WHAT...
What is wrong with me?
What makes me so insecure?
What possesses me to need you to respond immediately?
I feel so much for you
I never wanted it to hurt you.
Published 5th May 2020
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5th May 2020 4:41pm
Write it out Wak1
Never good to see others in pain
Yet the expression is laid bare with poetic aggravation.
Welcome to DU and Pen On Friend!!!
Never good to see others in pain
Yet the expression is laid bare with poetic aggravation.
Welcome to DU and Pen On Friend!!!
7th May 2020 11:35am
8th May 2020 00:48am
Oh I feel like an asshole now. I’ve moved past self pity and onto reality. Also she doesn’t ever want to be best friends again.
8th May 2020 4:18am
I don't really know what exactly happened but from what I know, you did nothing wrong. You can't change what happened, it is what it is and it was what it was. You've realized something was wrong and now you can try to fix it. Then in week or until your friend cools down a bit you can talk to her. Let her know your sorry, that you didn't know you were doing something wrong but you'll try to fix it. Tell her you would like to make up or start over, and you don't want to end it on a bad note. A friendship needs communication and it needs to go both ways. You are doing amazing, you realized something was wrong so the only thing you can do is fix it or break it. It's up to you and her, no one will blame you if you try. I'll root for you!! (Wow. I sound like a therapist. Just kinda word vomited but I hope it helps) P.s I know an online friend is not the same as a best friend but I'll always try to be here for you
