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Pain

pain
the simplicity
the beauty
i love it
especially if it comes from him
because i know he loves me
and i love him
if i do something wrong
then he is left with no choice
but to show me some
pain
and tell me it’s wrong
he wants me to stop doing bad things
cutting drinking smoking lying
but he doesn't realize
that a black eye
each beautiful bruise
every ounce of pain i will feel
his punishment only feels like a reward
it only makes me want him
to please hit me more
to give me more of the
pain
i adore
so i do the bad things
extra for him
because i want him to see
i hope he will decide
to punish me
hurt me please
 give me more of the
pain
simple
beautiful
but if he found out i loved the pain
he would stop
i can’t let him stop
he would be jealous
because i think i love the
pain
more than i love him
.
.
.
originally published in 2014
Written by gt-the-og (GT)
Published
Author's Note
this poem intends to express the authors emotions and feelings related to the experience of receiving desired pain from another
this poem DOES NOT intend to glorify mental illness, needless suffering, or domestic abuse
if you or someone you know is struggling with domestic abuse or mental illness, i highly encourage you to seek help (a simple web search should provide you with resources) please be safe
All writing remains the property of the author. Don't use it for any purpose without their permission.
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