Way out..

Struggling through life
With no signs of letting up
The only answer I see
Is surrendering
And giving up.

Minute by minute
Hour by hour
It's a never ending battle,
A fight that's wearing me down
It's wearing thin
I don't know how to get out
Or where to begin..

A smile
As if I'm putting on a show
No one cares
Because nobody knows

Sporting a brave face
Hiding inside
Laughing and joking,
Is my only disguise.
I play the fool
It's one i wear
A permanent smile
Like I don't have a care.

But eating away is a darkness
Depression
Trying to fight
But I'm losing
It's a progression..
the hurt and the pain
That eats me inside
A hurt and a pain I'm trying to hide

I go to my room
And bury my head in my pillow
For those few seconds
Halt my sadness
I can't breathe
And I'm struggling for air
I have no worries
I don't have a care

It's then I see a door
An exit
A way out of this pain and heartache
If those few seconds turn into minutes
Or hours
I'll be released from this torment
This distress
That my life has become.