help

help me please
im on my knees
god father please
my heart and soul are shattered
like glass shards everywhere
my silent prayers i utter
through parched lips
for salty tears
life years without change
i need you father
theres no hope left in me
i wish for death on a daily
im weak
it says the meak shall inherit the earth
is that because the meak are too weak to say no
lord god please i try so hard and to no avail
i fall short falter on this path
i fail
im hungry for knowledge my king
im so lost without your light
shine a circle of light
around me
please upon my knees
please help me back up back to you
father your footprints have all washed away
please carry me so far from here
everything i loved is gone
please shelter me on this path
a spiritual warrior i hope to be once again
i know ive failed put my sins on the cross
for gods sake i crucify myself
anoited is this covenant father live in me again