Corona quarantine

Feeling life on the brink of death
Ready for this ship to crash to wreck  
Not ready to be at peace for a life lived fully
Ready to die and give up sullenly  
For a life lived by its lonely
Is not a life lived fully  
 
Theres no wonder left or quotas to be met
I give up hang my soul to rest  
Quarantine is too much for the  ill minded  
Take away my distractions and im blinded  
Blacked out emptied into the void
Tobacco smoke guilting me paranoid  
 
Cancer surrounds me and my dreams cloud with drugs
For there is no place in this world where i can be loved
Self control is peetering out
Too much pressure explodes the spout  
For alone is how i will always remain
Death obsesses every thought on the brain
 
Too dark inside to make someone smile  
Whats the point of keeping up the charade for a while  
I am doomed to my family genetics
Die like the rest from heart complications or apologetic