Little Girl

I don't want the cigarette
I just want the nicotine
but I've grown used to the small amounts
and suddenly it's not so hard to breathe it in
I never thought I'd let myself grow used to it
yet here I am
I'm becoming what I once despised
I'm doing the things I said I'd never do
Will I end up an addict?
Or will I be what that little girl wanted me to be?
They don't know what I've become
I'm what they never wanted
and they have no idea
I've picked up the things
they hate about themselves
but they had to see this coming
They had to know I'd try it
even though I said I never would
What happened to the little girl
that just wanted to breathe clean air?
What happened to the kid
that said she'd never smoke
anything
or try the things her brother did?
I want to bring her back
but her time came to an end
Now all that's left of her
is another shitty teenage kid
killing her lungs  
before she's really had the chance to live.