Never Give Up

In and out of the program for years and years
Being afraid to honestly address my fears
This time working on my mental health
Paving the way to my spiritual wealth
Now that I have some time clean
Feeling all these feelings, what do they mean?
Emotions changing from day to day
Like riding a roller coaster, up and away!
I realize that some days will be tougher than others
But I can't run and hide under the covers
If I do I'll be stuck in my head
My addiction screaming at me "YOU'RE BETTER OFF DEAD!"
Now I know this really isn't true
So what am I going to do?
'Cuz this is a battle that will never end
So I go to a meeting or call a friend
Open up and share where I'm at
I no longer have to live like that
Find a sponsor and work the steps
Make some changes, rid myself of regrets
Being honest, open-minded and willing is HOW it works
Opens a door for a new life to be birthed
Do some digging and find the real me
All I want is to be happy and free
Lost dreams awaken and new possibilities arise
The shell of a human I've been now can die
Grateful for the gift of recovery I've been given
A chance to work towards a life worth living