Is this love?

If this is love
tell me if it's worth
dyin' for, should I throw
away all I've believed since today's
the day she says she's here to stay
even admits I'm the guy
she pictures able to lie
beside on a sandy beach
is this real or an itch
once she scratches
long enough disappears
I'd be damned should history repeat
run outta phlegm to spit
that whore's name a second more
took me a year
to realize each tear
I ever dropped was muddin' my own grave
ain't got a clue if this one will save
my soul from damnation
is she my redemption?
so many questions and not an answer.