Why not??

It’s night and dark so the mind feels it’s safe to wander, though this is a false sense of security. In daylight the senses occasionally report back that which isn’t there. That assault causes the mind to retreat back into its shell. Now, within that shell is chaos, with exponential threads with multiplying themes and threats. Fear takes over...fear of the consequences of yesterday’s actions and foreboding thoughts of what might lie in the future. I pause to think reasonable and rational thoughts but my mind locks me out. Suddenly I can’t control my own mind. Panic strikes me... have I ever been in control? How can I ever learn from yesterday when I can’t access those experiences and lessons? The answer is I don’t... I just go through the motions with the rest of humanity, never learning, just eternal doing.