A Four Letter Word

A four letter word sometimes better left unheard its definition is often misunderstood confused and twisted till its diminished non existent resiliant to the pain starting to think its an illusion's with no easy solution walking through the haze to better the resolution till I'm free and it grants me complete absolution
It's concept is hard to grasp since it never wants to stay intact I have to learn to take my time and not be in such a hurry love is deeply buried that I know more than a physical connection its gotta be more if not sooner or later it will lead to rejection gotta be more careful with my selection so many times I have ended up going in the wrong direction too late by the time I reach the intersection no turning back, too far in shooken up by the whirlwind lost and disoriented in a total daze by her beautiful face till one day it fades away not meant to be finally able to see the spell is broken like my ticker growing thicker skin cuz im tired of being thrown into the bin