Heavy Heart

I think I have forgotten how to smile.
I taste nothing but the tears that have drowned my emotions.
My heart now controls every thought I have.
I hate this heart. It beats heavy in my chest.
And each tear that falls, It skips a beat.
Soon, it will stop beating. I wish it were that easy.

In the mean-time, Nothing but hollow echos.
Empty, savage, sorrow-filled howling filled with bitter hate.
The only way I know to describe the beat that's locked within my fragile heart.
My empty, heavy heart.

Silent screams, Horrific dreams.
The pain has now become noticeable.
With nothing but a thread to hold onto,
considering jumping.
Maybe it will be easier?
Take the road less travel?

As each beat makes me shudder, I weaken.
But the howling wind,
that crashes against the walls of my heart,
remain fatal.
With it's icy tongue, it licks every part of me,
But not cold enough to numb the pain.
Is there anything I could do, Just to numb the pain?

I don't want to hurt anymore.
Every thought breaks my heart.
Every memory breaks my heart.
Every beat breaks my heart.
My empty, heavy heart.