Just a fantasy

A need a body
to be next to..
Another being to hold
and behold,
someone with a beautiful mind and soul
to help me just not
lose complete control..

Or maybe I'd just like
someone to seduce
and lust after
and fuck to be blunt,
obviously I'd prefer it to be with someone I can connect with
on those sacred
 emotional, spiritual
and sensual levels but
I suppose at this point
I probably wouldn't pass up
any possibility of losing this virginity
which may be what it's really about
but not because I doubt or deceive myself into thinking time's running out
but because I just want to
experience that shit,
the spectrum of
a spiritually strong relationship
and sexual explorations,
I must admit
I can't forsee it
at least not right now..
I guess I underestimate
and underrate my urges
which are always urgently surging
in the background of my
blacked out mind..