Time Is Running OUT

I found Love again.
But I'm petrified to explore it,
Things were left in the past and unsaid.
And all I want is this to work out for best.
In five months a decision will have to be made,
I don't think that I'm strong enough,
To do what right for me.
I love him and work really hard to get
him.

BUT my Love for travel is greater than any
thing that we might have.
To see the world is like the candy
I got as a child.
But who doesn't want to be love?
so again I'm left with something on my mind,
Can I have both and be egotistic.
Must I have to choose?