When to See the Light

If my books (comedy fiction, or biography, mostly) are not selling and contributing to bread on the table... when I could do a thousand other things....

How are my offspring going to value tools that demoralized them, directly or indirectly?

I already have a tiny mini novel in print. That thing may be the death of my career.

Which is problematic, because writing has been putting a smile on my face through some very hard days.

My family needs me and I need me. I thought we could take care of two things at once. As it is, my love of poetry and books may become just a resented facet of who I am, if that isn't already the case. It's not just because I spend too much time, although I tried to quit or cut down and just ended up writing more...

A tv watching habit, which I don't have, would be at least as time consuming. And a girl can play if it's for health, right? It's not like I walk or go outside like I should.... something has to get left over for me. I'd rather never take time for the outside than miss the sun that shines inside.