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THE ME KNOWONE SEES
Have you ever wondered deep within your mind, when you see someone for the very first time and there is just something about them that stands out of your mind, but yet you cant put your finger upon it but they seem normal just like you in mind heart and soul but who truly knows what goes on behind close doors.
For could you even image living an secet life were your thoughts control your mind and emotions, sending you subliminal messages to decode deep down inside. For even the images and sounds of normal everyday life will click your imagination to run wild and free, as they slowly begin to start invading your mind dreams at night awakening you with sweat dripping from your body and soul. Leaving your mind confused and alone to deal with, the monsters that have become awaken from within the depth of your mind. For on the outside you look like everyone eles, but yet behind close doors and pull down shades to block out the outside light of your cage, only to bring in more DEPRESSION and annxiety with insomnia and nightmares of PTSD to eat at your mind of your soul. For its a whole different kind of story to tell, for you slowly feel thyself sinking deeper into an bottomless pit of misery which will have you feeling trap with no escape route, only darkness as your comfort blanket screaming at you to release this monster that dewells deep inside of you and let your demons out to play.
For could you even image living an secet life were your thoughts control your mind and emotions, sending you subliminal messages to decode deep down inside. For even the images and sounds of normal everyday life will click your imagination to run wild and free, as they slowly begin to start invading your mind dreams at night awakening you with sweat dripping from your body and soul. Leaving your mind confused and alone to deal with, the monsters that have become awaken from within the depth of your mind. For on the outside you look like everyone eles, but yet behind close doors and pull down shades to block out the outside light of your cage, only to bring in more DEPRESSION and annxiety with insomnia and nightmares of PTSD to eat at your mind of your soul. For its a whole different kind of story to tell, for you slowly feel thyself sinking deeper into an bottomless pit of misery which will have you feeling trap with no escape route, only darkness as your comfort blanket screaming at you to release this monster that dewells deep inside of you and let your demons out to play.
Written by
Stoney223
(WOLF BAY33)
Published 21st Jan 2020
Author's Note
MENTAL HEALTH OF ANY KIND IS A NIGHTMARE, FOR ALL THAT SUFFER WITH IT ON A DAILY BASIC AS IT IS A STRUGGLE TO OVER COME, AS WELL AS TO DEAL WITH IT AND LIVE WITH IT ON AN PERSONAL LEVEL FOR EVEN THOUGH YOUR WIRED DIFFERENT, YOU STILL HAVE A HEART AND SOUL AS YOU FEEL HURT AND PAIN AS YOU STILL CRY TEARS BUT YET WE SOMETIMES PREFER TO REMAIN QUIET AND STILL HIDING WITHIN THE DARKNESS OF NIGHT...STONEY BAY
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Re. THE ME KNOWONE SEES
21st Jan 2020 12:14pm
Sometimes, healing can be an arduous journey, but well worth the self investment to unfuck ones mind, or at least, invest time exploring restorative processes to find and hit that reset button on the psyche !
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21st Jan 2020 12:22pm
this is true words of wisdom yes i agree with your insight thats why i write alot to unclean my mind and soul, writing for me became my escape from out of the madness of my brain that can get very heavy at times with thoughts of images and situations that lay dormant in my mind heart and soul, i appreciate the support dear poetess i agree sometimes one needs to reboot rethink recharge and rechange how we see things in order to get back to what is a normal way of life...respect dear poetess
Re. THE ME KNOWONE SEES
21st Jan 2020 5:34pm
Powerful piece stoney I feel your words so deeply,
"For its a whole different kind of story to tell, for you slowly feel thyself sinking deeper into an bottomless pit of misery which will have you feeling trapped with no escape route, only darkness as your comfort blanket screaming at you to release this monster that dewells deep inside of you and let your demons out to play." Damn straight you nailed it here no doubt it's a daily struggle
But as u said "YOU STILL HAVE A HEART AND SOUL" yes and even though it feels like we're losing those we can still save ourselves, it helps to know I'm not alone in feeling this way
Great piece thanks for sharing
"For its a whole different kind of story to tell, for you slowly feel thyself sinking deeper into an bottomless pit of misery which will have you feeling trapped with no escape route, only darkness as your comfort blanket screaming at you to release this monster that dewells deep inside of you and let your demons out to play." Damn straight you nailed it here no doubt it's a daily struggle
But as u said "YOU STILL HAVE A HEART AND SOUL" yes and even though it feels like we're losing those we can still save ourselves, it helps to know I'm not alone in feeling this way
Great piece thanks for sharing
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21st Jan 2020 5:56pm
from the deepness of my soul i appreicate your true insight and sharing your thoughts and feelings with emotions upon this subject not really talk about as it is real for some of us that hide within the darkness...much respect brother
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Anonymous
22nd Jan 2020 00:57am
Know that feeling well. Well expressed the demons of the mind that most don't care to admit. The healing comes different for others, for writing is my outlet also even if I don't post it all, Friend. Blessings.
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thank you for the love and support my dear friend yes for we all have our demons deep inside of us which becomes a struggle just to breathe and be normal even for a few days...respect
Re. THE ME KNOWONE SEES
23rd Jan 2020 3:39am
Sounds like me when I'm anger cause someone pissed me off and my own demons jump out to rage with laughter and madness of joy to see I'm very fired up and it won't stop till i make it stop but its hard cause when u mad you mad lol
Well Then depression hits in and well its another mental health that isn't fun either but well mine calms after a day or two sometimes a week. Depends what I'm depressed about.
But never do i think about suicide cause that's not the answer to ones personal problems.
Thanks for sharing hun really enjoyed its message much respect 🤗❤
Well Then depression hits in and well its another mental health that isn't fun either but well mine calms after a day or two sometimes a week. Depends what I'm depressed about.
But never do i think about suicide cause that's not the answer to ones personal problems.
Thanks for sharing hun really enjoyed its message much respect 🤗❤
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23rd Jan 2020 11:13am
i appreicate your read and comment on this piece yes anger can be a very dangerous thing indeed to try to control but in the end sometimes anger will get the best of you causing you to do and say things you regret but it takes a very strong minded individual who doesnt think of an easier way out of the situation like suicide taking ones own life that still survive to fight another day but yet sometimes it gets to hard to handle for some without that support of family and friends that find themselves trap within a world wind of confusion for know matter who you are there are somethings stronger than you to me its a matter of choice whether to live or die i chose to fight to survive before i chose to die...respect
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23rd Jan 2020 1:55pm
Yes i choose the same way, life is too beautiful to end it to a an unimportant thing in our lives we thinking is a huge deal to end it just cause we can't seem to control our negative thoughts. Like many even the rich so much money and yet still weakened to die ending in personal choice sadly.
I can only imagine how far depression can actually be in ones mind when so corrupted to such extreme that can't control but want to kill oneself. May God help them giving them a sort of light to rid the evil thoughts.
Again life is too beautiful to die before ones true time.
I can only imagine how far depression can actually be in ones mind when so corrupted to such extreme that can't control but want to kill oneself. May God help them giving them a sort of light to rid the evil thoughts.
Again life is too beautiful to die before ones true time.
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23rd Jan 2020 6:15pm
beautifully stated dear poetess for regardless of the situation that we may face its not the end of the world, for the next day is a new day to see for dying is not the answer to your problem it only makes it someone eles problem to deal with when your gone, trying to fill in the empty blanks with unanswered questions mainly WHY you chose to go out like that leaving folks, even more hurt and confuse that is why its best to find someone who understands what you feel and what your going through for you are not alone there are people to help you to get a better insight into your mind and heart and spiritual soul...respect
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23rd Jan 2020 6:51pm
Yes very true, in the Bible with Judas selling out Jesus for a couple of silver coins and later regretted it as he knew they were gonna crucify Jesus. But even as he returned the coins, it was too late and that drive him insane and walk run in the open lost path feeling so much sorrow and hate with himself and knowing he could not undo his dark deceiving choice, he decided to listen to the evil whispers and hang himself.
In reality he didn't understand that Jesus had to be crucified for that was how his lord father wanted things to be, to forgive the forbidden fruit that was eaten by Adam and eve and keep from humanity being in total damnation. He didn't understand what it all meant and felt so sorry for betraying Jesus and instead of talking with it with his other brothers the apostles, and finding a way to ease his regretting pain, he chose the death path and nothing helped his choice like that he made.
He is a good example of how not to go about things in a suicidal choice but to talk to anyone but someone about any problem or pain one is carrying on them.
In reality he didn't understand that Jesus had to be crucified for that was how his lord father wanted things to be, to forgive the forbidden fruit that was eaten by Adam and eve and keep from humanity being in total damnation. He didn't understand what it all meant and felt so sorry for betraying Jesus and instead of talking with it with his other brothers the apostles, and finding a way to ease his regretting pain, he chose the death path and nothing helped his choice like that he made.
He is a good example of how not to go about things in a suicidal choice but to talk to anyone but someone about any problem or pain one is carrying on them.
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23rd Jan 2020 6:58pm
very well expressed thoughts dear poetess there is more to life to see and experience for he not only die for us to have a second chance at life for killing oneself is not the answer but learning to live is the key to finding a solution to want to live and experiencee all the wondeful andd beautiful things that life has to offer...respect
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23rd Jan 2020 8:16pm
Yes life has much to offer but we tend to be weak but if we have faith then nothing will lead us to do wrong things or bad choices.
Much respect 🤗❤
Much respect 🤗❤
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23rd Jan 2020 10:45pm
truth spoken indeed dear poetess and yes we become weak in most of our situations when we know that we shouldnt be in it to begin with in the first place but even if we do have faith you know the devil is always standing and waiting for you to fall from grace that is when our strength is tested the most in our lives...respect
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23rd Jan 2020 11:25pm
Yes I'm trying to avoid those things but it's hard. People around me always like testing my anger so it seems and I lose patience.
I'm trying to just ignore things.
I'm trying to just ignore things.
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24th Jan 2020 00:04am
I know it gets hard at times sometimes you just gotta walk away from the stress of the situation just to breathe and think clearly for if not you pay the biggest price trust me on that one never let them see you break out in anger...respect
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24th Jan 2020 1:55am
Yes you are right in fact get a joy of seeing me in fumes so yea not worth it.
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24th Jan 2020 10:47am
That's right misery loves company for its sad to say that some people just like drama with the process of stress they figure that if there life is not good why should your life be any different ...respect
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24th Jan 2020 12:26pm
Yes true, we'll I am trying be better and that's what happened yesterday. I tried flowing with all my family including one that always upsets me. Well he on purpose makes me very angry, I got mad but I tried keeping it in cool too some but still got in his case but not so high mad. I told him to stop many times he kept doing and I just told my dad and basically I was reading my older nephew one my poems and mg pain in ass nephew and kept interrupting on purpose and my older nephew had hard time understanding what my poem was meaning and stuff and with the distraction I got so angry so after many times shouting to stop and stuff I told my dad and he kinda stopped. It's hard cause when they doing things n purpose just because how do u not get mad lol
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24th Jan 2020 1:37pm
i feel you on that there is always one or two clowns around that just have to be seen and heard and be the center of attention its sad some folks have to go that far to be notice, but that still doesnt make it right it seems to me you need to have your own place to many distractions there knowone seems to care about individual space, i am proud of the way you handle the situation dear poetess for it could have been worse for sometimes its best to concentract on moving on and out away from the drama and stress for you cant put a price upon peace of mind heart and spiritual soul...respect
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24th Jan 2020 1:48pm
Thanks he is 13 yrs and knows better but he likes doing that to me a lot. He is a hard pain in ass and yes he does t to get high attention like if anyone or like I or my daughter talks he butts in to say something and makes me more mad when its my daughter talking and he interrupts. I get so mad cause he tries cutting her speech everytime. Not only that but other stuff he does with my daughter that pisses me badly. I get on to him a lot and tries to bully her too.
Yes I know getting my own place be best. I need to and haven't cause my health was bad and lil better now trying be better my health. So I'll soon try to attempt look for work and try getting my situation better in a more independent way. Her and I need our own space away from direct drama.
Yes I know getting my own place be best. I need to and haven't cause my health was bad and lil better now trying be better my health. So I'll soon try to attempt look for work and try getting my situation better in a more independent way. Her and I need our own space away from direct drama.
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24th Jan 2020 2:12pm
yeah i had a few in my family thats part of the reason why plus the other things that happen i dont bother with them been so use of being on my own living my life had enough of the drama and stress growing up havent been back for about 17 years now besides you cant miss what you never had to begin with in the first place in my case but i truly understand your situation for you both need your own space...respect
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23rd Jan 2020 1:48pm
My dear brother you are ripping me apart today for I live this life with my husband with dissassociative disorder
I have very rarely seen the man I married for ten years now I miss him
I have very rarely seen the man I married for ten years now I miss him
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23rd Jan 2020 6:20pm
believe me its not my intentions at all i just felt being that i go through the motions at times i just really wanted folks to know is to understand how mental illness affect each and everyone of us differently in life i have the utmost respect for you as you stepped up to the plate in your situations for many in your shoes would rather not even give the time of time as you stated its a struggle indeed...respect
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24th Jan 2020 5:37pm
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24th Jan 2020 5:40pm
thank you dear young poetess i understand your pain and hurt see your not alone going through the struggle...respect
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24th Jan 2020 5:44pm
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24th Jan 2020 5:50pm
family is not always blood its the heart that changes everything you ever felt or thought when one connects with kindred spiritual soul...respect...respect
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24th Jan 2020 5:52pm