Error

I search for answers
Inside the haze
Truth was spoken
My eyes were glazed
Astonished by these events
That baffle me
Right now im defriending me
That night I lost my control
My resolve left with my soul
What was I thinking
With you around
How did I not turn you down
Inhibitions running wild
Perfect storm
Perfect cloud
An alive comatose state
I had reached
Not knowing my boundries
You were there
But not there for me
I was here
But it wasnt the real me
How can I forgive a tragedy
When I cant fathom
This mediocrity
I sit in this chair in tears
Unknown is my fear
Serenity preach sovereignty
Courage teach strength
Lift this tramatic state
I live on
I breathe on
This time with hope
Next time with faith
I shall remember this mistake
Not for shame
Not in disgust
But for lessons
I cannot discuss
Live from this second
To your death
With all the diginity
You have left.