Snipped Larynx

Miserable with a smile.
This dam is cracked during drought.
Soul is famined.

Already dead but forbidden to escape.
Dante, why have you conceptionalized my existance?

Taproot scorched from this inferno.
The tree that seed me,....
- lost for words.
How could i even describe her to herself?
Tried and tried again.

Struggling with every struggle.

i've observed that mud grows the biggest hearts.
To farm the largest targets for the easiest strikes.
i can see you,... small chameleon.

i have to remind myself i can cry....
and then somehow i don't.
like i can't stand up to my own joke.

My dam is crumbling this moment.
Moments ago, and more moments of now.
I'm terrified to ask how.

High tide in my eyes.
I have no clue.
I've never gotten this far.

My knees can feel this stormfront.
As they can feel the quakes forming.
May be why i'm trembling.
Unknowing.

i think i dont know who i am.
i dont think who i am would know.
i dont think.
i react, in the eternal contemplation.

i know why i am why i am.
a library of misunderstandings,
all comprehensively read.

i don't remember the chaos that i cant seem to forget.
Full of regret with nothing to repent.

failing my favorite people.
tattoed like a family motto.
So heavy inside,
Yet so hollowed.

"fuck your precious metals, it'll never chip our stones.
Insulted devolved ameba."
-the mirror to its reflection

misery has me gripped around the throat.
still; i ignore.

Can you blame me?
please?

i've been imprisoned in so many ways.
they sentenced me to labor my own cell.
so pride instills i call it my own.
Oh well.

the poor bastard inheritant cant say the same.
i must be the greatest father to never have fathered.
the world can be welcome,
By my cauterized branch.

Pyromancer.
Is the fucking answer.
Walking disaster.
I'm a fucking cancer;
Burn me alive.

nihilists sure ramble on.
self-agnostic enlightenment.
all the answers, as life passes you by and you let it.
meditate on your cowardice and never move a muscle.

my cheekbones don't compress.
statued amess.

They say what's done is done.
Unaware repair.
It is what it is.
Who cares?

Wondering while crumbling.

Death, my dear old friend.
We meet again.
You look like shit.
The comfort in my hands,
Has lost its grip.

Shadow worn like cloak.
Shadow worn on me.
Shadow worn.
On never mind,
I think it's warm.
But still i freeze.

We're here....
...then we're not.
It's as if i almost forgot.
Seeking to be lost.
In the back of my mind.