Purgatory

The simplest things I've ever known
Like knowing which direction is home
Or how it feels to start the day
Without the bulk of the world in your weight

Or the magic instilled within a child
All worries would fade with only a smile
These things and so many more
From a life, so vague, I knew from before

A life where my soul did not have to bleed
A life not spent down on my knees
It was a much different version of me
One in which my spirit roamed free

The guilt and the pain that I now know
Not yet discovered by that me, long ago
The real challenge is jumping back on that ride
I can't seem to find it from here on this side

Can those two paths ever reconnect
Will the old and the new ever intersect
I sit here in darkness, praying for light
For hope, love and happiness to invade this night

Trapped here where nothing seems to grow
Being a stranger that I myself do not know
The world buzzes on, my chance slowly fleeting
Faintly, I feel my weak heart is still beating

Hoping to encounter a me I've not met
Before all of these lost years turn into regret
Something from within just won't let me die
Won't let me give up, reminds me to cry

Things lurk in the shadows, barely at bay
I've conformed to the darkness, no longer afraid
I pray to something, I struggle with my faith
If this is a nightmare, please God, let me wake

I continue to push forth, to preservere
Some unseen force telling me the exit is near
A little voice refusing to give in to doubt
Whispers, "keep going, you'll find a way out"