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I知 okay
My smile just lied to your salutations
Because I am battling this anxiety
Knowing damn well, I just uttered a lie
When I said, I am doing well today
I couldn稚 allow you to see...
See the pain that痴 killing me silently
Honestly, It hurts me more to smile...
But, Yes I知 okay today
With counterfeit smile that I managed to mustard up from deep inside
A lie I used to...
allow depression to continue to quietly ruin my life
These smiles you see are temporary these days
Because, after the picture or amazing conversation the cause still exist
And these walls are left with anger from bruised and bloody fist
I think I need a genuine hug
But please don稚 touch me
Because I am ill-tempered, by your much needed loving embrace
Cringing from the intrusive invasion of my personal space
Trying to keep a straight face
And when asked my response... I知 okay
So bad I want to say hell no
And express my feelings, but every time I get the courage, words fail me to say
So I lie and respond, I知 okay
Yes just okay
Published 27th Dec 2019
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27th Dec 2019 10:50pm
First let me say bravo to the courage you have shown in this piece.
PTSD is such a blanket statement diagnosis. For myself it has been a journey of education for those around me who want to help and don't know how. I always have to remind them if they really want to help, look it up.
I never had a support system.
And I thank people such as yourself to enlighten society that we are not sociopaths. We have been injured and heal at our own pace. Please remember it's ok to be angry. It's a long process. And an individual one as well. Always Respect dear poet✌
PTSD is such a blanket statement diagnosis. For myself it has been a journey of education for those around me who want to help and don't know how. I always have to remind them if they really want to help, look it up.
I never had a support system.
And I thank people such as yourself to enlighten society that we are not sociopaths. We have been injured and heal at our own pace. Please remember it's ok to be angry. It's a long process. And an individual one as well. Always Respect dear poet✌
18th Jan 2020 1:00am
28th Dec 2019 8:44am
Dear P,
I echo Lagertha regarding ptsd and sharing your truest inner thoughts. It does take a very long time to heal and some days I think if ever.
Your piece here is raw and realatable to most of us. I think it痴 the courageous who call out a troubling situation and acknowledge it to take an action.
Well penned. H🌷
I echo Lagertha regarding ptsd and sharing your truest inner thoughts. It does take a very long time to heal and some days I think if ever.
Your piece here is raw and realatable to most of us. I think it痴 the courageous who call out a troubling situation and acknowledge it to take an action.
Well penned. H🌷
18th Jan 2020 1:01am
