You Won't be Another Bandaid

You are a drunken table top dance in the middle of a graveyard
You are a dead sleep burrowed under ten blankets in the chaos of a rave
You are a cancelled thrilling Netflix series left on a cliff hanger
You are a zealous patriot at a memorial singing the wrong song of the brave

You are a comforting whisper in a stampede of buffalo
You are a lighthouse in a storm that leads the wrong way
You are a corpse perched on main street in the heat of summer
You are a string of vows at a wedding I cannot form to say

Is there really a good thing at the wrong time?
A good thought behind a horrible deed?
Is a drop of satisfaction enough when you're thirsty for a downpour?
An excuse to cover up for the one thing you really need?

There's an adventure around every bend
With every blindfolded step we take
There's a colder comedown to every high
A crack bigger and closer to a break

Can you break an endless destructive cycle
When you always lose your way?
The heaviness in my heart drowns me still
And I'm finding now there's no escape

You're not the high you used to be
And I'm a little more broken every year
I want to heal myself and love you right
But I'm driven by regret and fear

I'm one more drug reference that feels more real
I'm one more step closer to sealing this deal
This isn't what it seems I'm praying a God will take this wheel
Because there's love here but it doesn't take away this pathetic way I feel